I just can't get into it. It's been some time since I wrote/blogged here. Life sometimes gets my head wrapped up, then this absolute BULLSHIT happens again and all the STUFF comes up again..Guns / no guns, Life/No Life..I sit here now and swear I just HEARD a gunshot! I don't KNOW any answers! Am I scared for the people I love? Hell YES every DAY! Do I expect them to sit back and chew granola while someone maybe asks them if they believe in God with a gun in their face or while lined up against the wall unable to defend themselves while some ASSHOLE SONOFABITCH who is having a BAD day and decided to fuck up the world plays 20 questions with babies and THEY don't like the answer so they BLOW them the FUCK away!? I am SO pissed OFF and my friends are suffering from their shit and others suffer with THEIR shit and just WHEN?? Just WHEN do we sit back and love each other enough to say..No one is going to catch me unawares..No one is going to hurt me and mine as long as there is breath in MY body..I will NOT sit back and let people WALK into MY life and my peoples lives and think IT IS OK TO DO THIS!!
How MANY of us are just fucking DREADING turning on the tv now? I know I am! I can't even BEGIN to watch the news. My friends are in pain..why?? Why is this life going like this? You know what I think of when I go in ANYWHERE now? Emergency exits..Places to hide. Locks on doors. Paranoia? Maybe..Perhaps it's just high alert. I don't know anymore. I just know this..I just don't want..I just don't want another horrendous attack. I just don't want to see someone cry anything but tears of joy. I just don't want to debate with someone over some stupid ass BULLSHIT that is not going to CHANGE a FUCKING thing! I just want to pray..to God..and Goddesses..and Buddha..and Muhammad..and Allah..and I want ONE of them to PLEASE PLEASE listen! No more!! No MORE!! Not ONE more death in vain!! Not one more CRAZY ASS MOTHERFUCKER taking the lives of our friends and families and strangers and ..and..Please? Not one more..I just don't want to..
